My old soul?

I have always wanted to do a blog, well I guess I should say, I have always like to write.  This might be a shock to some, as I dislike English class, writing papers, and all of the 'school' type writing.  However the older I got, the more I liked to write about the things I liked.  I liked to capture words on a page, tyring to paint a picture for those reading.  I think maybe that is where my love for radio sports broadcasting comes from.  Trying to paint a picture through words, so the person on the other side of the radio can 'see' whats going on.

With that being said, the nice thing about having a blog is; I don't have to worry about grammar, spelling, punctuation, etc.  In fact, as you read through this, you might catch a lot of those rules being broken.  My goal is to get my thoughts, feelings, and opinions down.  I don't think I want to take the time to spell check, grammar check, and such.  So while everything might not be a 'perfection' as far as those go, I am sure you will get the point of each blog.  If I can accomplish that, great! 

Before I forget and so she doesn't think I am copying her, my friend Jessie Huck-Parks has a blog as well.  She just started and its good stuff and she is a very good writer.  You can find it at http://apostcardfromlife.blogspot.com/

So you might wonder why the title 'my old soul', not only for this blog, but also the title of this specific posting.  Growing up I always knew I was a bit different. Those who know me, are saying to themselves 'a bit different?'.  By all accounts I don't think I was strange nor was I a loner.  What I mean by different is, I always felt like I was here for a reason.  A different reason maybe than what most think their purpose on this earth is for.  The strange part comes in because I felt this way at a very young age.  An age that most kids don't even know what having a 'purpose' is.  Many of my blogs I have a feeling, will tend to focus and talk about this reason.  Which I will talk about later.

The 'old soul' meaning?  It wasn't until my wife said the words one day, that I realized what really summed 'me'.  Summed up my thinking of what life was about, why I was here, how things that have happened in my life really seem to tie into each other.  Pretty much my thinking of why God put me here.  Just so you know, I will talk about God a lot in my blogs.  I will talk about my background with religion, what I think, what I believe, etc.  I will do this because it's the base of every decision I make in life.  Or at least I try an base my decisions on how it reflects on my thoughts of how God would want things done.  Needless to say, I am far from having this down to a science.

While I consider myself a person who believes in God with everything I have.  I think you will find my stance interesting of religion.  I think there can be a place of peace that people can have with God and their religion, and that is up to the person.  I think we can show His grace and greatness to other people, not by pushing religion onto them or making them feel bad about their lives, rather by letting them see Him. though our actions and treatment of others.(people are more perceptive than we think, they will get 'it').  Sorry, again, my thoughts on this will be a whole other post, but felt it was important to talk a little about it.  Back to old soul.

My wife looked at me one day, knowing me pretty well by this point in our life, and said 'you know something, you have the oldest soul of any 20something person I know'.  Now, I don't remember what I was doing or saying to make her think this.  I mean, it could have been many things. 

We could have been driving in the car and I shut off the radio, and after 20 minutes of silence, her asking why I had done such a thing.  My simple reply to her would have been, because I wanted to be 'alone with my thoughts'.(this is something I do often.)  I have driven up to 8 hours by myself in the car, without a single sound other than what was going through my head.).  It could have been me at the age of 23 telling her, 'lets not go out tonight on the town, instead lets rent a movie and go home and hang out.'  It could be the fact that all I listen to is sports talk radio, or public talk radio.  Or it could have been that I like to go to Bob Evans for dinner or sometimes use words, that she says only 'old men use'.

It's safe to say however, she isn't the only one that thinks this.  My friends tell me this all the time as well.  I am kind of glad she described it as this, as it truly is a perfect description.  I like to call it being mature for my age, they often say 'nope, just you being old'.  As I have accepted having this old soul, I have often thought about turning my experiences, thougths, everything really, into a book.  Calling it, of course, 'My Old Soul'. 

I have often wondered if people would read a book about me.  Not because I feel like I am interesting, rather I have had some interesting/amazing things happen to me in life.  I think I could tie those into ways that others could look at it, and maybe draw from them, and either laugh, or use them to help with their life.  As I sit back, it is shocking how many different pieces and parts I take from books, or others thoughts, or life lessons and use them in my life.  And if no one read it, well I wouldn't be out anything really  I thought maybe writing in this blog, would allow me to get an idea of what to put a book.  After all, a guys wrote a best selling book about his 'un-ruley dog' using a combination of his newspaper columns he wrote during his time as a journalist.

Enjoy the blogs, and take what you want, leave what you want as well.  I hope this allows me to get a the millions thoughts and ideas I have, down on 'paper'.  I hope you enjoy a look into my 'old soul'.